Compassion & St Ignatius


In recent weeks I have come to see how fear works against compassion. Compassion requires that we open ourselves to the suffering around us, even if it reminds us of our own vulnerability. A wise friend of mine once said that severe suffering can bring us to what Ignatius called the third degree of humility, a state of deep identification with the suffering of Christ. “We are given that kind of grace,” she said, “only when we need it.” So, we must not live in fear that we won’t be able to cope or endure when it is our turn. No one knows which road they will have to walk and no parent wants to walk a road that includes the loss of a child, but I hear the voice of Christ saying to me loudly and clearly, “be not afraid.” As best as I am able, I will try to walk with my sister and brother-in-law in a spirit of compassionate love that has no room for fear


st ignatius

st ignatius

Pursuing God

I was reading “Not a Fan” by Kyle Idlemanand this section on passionately pursuing Jesus really stood out to me. I want this in my own life, but rarely have it. I am just going to type out the sections.

“Pursuing a romantic love will make us do some crazy things. When I was dating my soon-to-be wife, she borrowed my car to go visit her family about eighty miles away from where we went to college. She had only been gone for a day, but I missed her and wanted to be with her. I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn’t stop thinking about her. I wanted to see her and tell her I loved her. I had to do something. My college roommate was sleeping in the bed across the room. I woke him up and told him my dilemma, but he couldn’t do much to help because he didn’t have a car. Suddenly, I had what seemed like a brilliant idea. I said to him, ‘What if we just ride bikes over to her house?’
He was up for it, but this new plan presented us with a similar problem as before: neither of us owned bikes. Then my buddy reminded me of the bikes on campus. We decided it would be fine to “borrow” the bikes for our journey.
Knowing nothing about bicycles, I grabbed the first one I saw, which happened to be a Walmart special. It turns out that this is not the bike of choice for an eighty-mile journey down the flat roads of Kansas against constant headwind. After riding for hours, we decided to park our bikes and take a nap in a ditch on the side of the road. While we were sleeping, a state trooper saw us and pulled over to investigate. He woke me up by placing his boot on my shoulder and jostling me awake. I believe his exact words were, “Are you boys smokin’ something? What are you doing riding bikes across Kansas?
I tried to explain” “I wanted to be with my fiancée.” He rolled his eyes, shook his head, got in his car, and drove away. He thought I was crazy for doing such a thing. If Nat could see me now.
When we finally make it to Kansas, my wife’s response was fairly similar to the state trooper’s She thought I was nuts. But the moment I saw her I knew it was worth it.”
“Jesus wants us to understand that following him is a pursuit that requires everything we have. Jesus tells a parable in Matthew 13 called “The Pearl of Great Price.” It gives us a picture of what Jesus had in mind when he invited us to come after him. ‘The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.’ “
Jesus is that treasure! We should sell everything in our lives because we know the true treasure in that field! Fans are shallow and think spending energy on Jesus is too much work. Followers think it’s a joy to sell everything and live radically for Jesus because they know that they are just scratching the surface of that treasure.
“Do you like me? yes? no? maybe? Remember these words of Jesus are the words of an invitation, not a command. Jesus begins the invitation to come after him with the word “if.” That indicates that there is a choice in the matter. One of the most basic truths about love is that it can’t be forced. If you try and force someone to love you it’s almost a guarantee that they won’t.”
“Pursuing Jesus is your choice and Jesus wants to make it clear what you’re agreeing to if you respond to his invitation. He will settle for nothing less than to be the great love and pursuit of your life. That’s what he wants. At church, we sometimes talk about how “God wants your time,” or “God wants your money,” or “God wants your worship.” But do you understand why we talk about those things?” “The reason we talk about hose things is not because God needs or wants those things; it’s because he wants you. He wants your love. He longs for you to passionately pursue him, and all those things are come after indicators. They are outer signs that point to an inner reality that you love Jesus more than anything else.”
The author tells how to regain that passionate love for Jesus; first to repent and then do as you did when you had that love for Jesus. “That’s a great place to start in your relationship with Christ. Confess the sin of acedia (the attitude of “I don’t care”) in your life then start doing the things you did at first.” “Recommit your love to God and then passionately pursue Him. David put it this way in Ps. 63:8 “My soul followeth hard after thee….”
Anyways, those are the parts that got my attention. Am I in love with Jesus? Am I pursuing Him? I am going to be striving to have that passionate relationship with Him. He is the Lover of our Souls. Follow Him today.


I have this phobia. I’m really afraid to just brush him aside and forget him. So I saves his photo as my IPhone lock screen. Everyone my phone locks, I’d see his smiling beautiful face.

I pray that I won’t go through everyday just neglecting about Jesus & Kenneth. I have this high tenancy

I have died everyday waiting for you. Time has brought your heart to me. I have loved you for a thousand years, a thousand more.

What do I do if someone else comes along while you are away? You come back searching for me. I couldn’t recognise you at all. You reminded me of our friendship we felt about each other and was mutual. I realised, I have moved on.

what do I do then?

would you still seek to pursueme?


I can’t get that image out of my mind. The image of you wearing your hairband with your side cuts new ”homeboy” hairstyle. I just can’t seem to get it out of my mind. You putting your both hands into your shorts, standing at your car. It was 11pm. * i think * You finally asked me how I felt. I was so taken aback. 


You asked.


”You are not being yourself, be honest with me , you can share how you feel and think with me, I said I’ll be your listening ear when you’re upset. You have been acting strangely recently. You are not being yourself, you are never like that. Something’s wrong, what’s it? We are friends, and we will continue to be good friends.please stop being like this. Whatever it is, I’ll still be your listening ear. You’re a nice girl Jonella, but I’m leaving for sydney.”


I felt rather happy when I was being very distant from you. I’m too afraid. I don’t want to prove anyone right. I just rather to brush it aside and pretend you didn’t ask.


Sucha loser, I know.

I don’t trust you. I need my time. I have issues to face, some perhaps a lifetime of healing. I pushed you aside because I have been doing everything by myself. hah. too self reliant.I learnt and taught myself that if anyone wanted to be my good friend, be a listening ear. Just to protect myself… I don’t know how to accept it when someone wants to be there for me, for better or worst. I don’t know what else to say to you. Goodnight.


 Last night was NYE. I felt very down… I was just thinking about my year. I feel upset. The catch uup made me realized how transformed he has became. It was the hardest to accept. He knew that I didn’t trust him. yet he still persisted to gain my trust. And, I was happy. I don’t know what can happen when he flies. I have started to miss him. I guess after the time when we catch up. How can I miss him?! How can this be possible. We weren’t very close. From that very moment onwards, I knew that our lives changed. God came in our lives, took the centre of it. We both have gotton our paths straight. We have found ourselves. 


The heartsharings. I saw what God gonna do with him. I am extremely excited! It seems as though perhaps, his calling would be a Missionary. But I’m not psychic, that’s only for him to discover.


I know, I am and will be the good catholic girl every guy wishes to have. So many have affirmed that of me. The life I used to have, I used to be, the impossible transformation I went through. The grieves I had to go through, myself. It doesn’t matter.


I still am trying to be brave. How can I love when I’m afraid.  Watch me stand up alone. Late 2011, I made a lot of sacrifices. Forever I am sacrificing. I chose it myself. I too chose to be alone. I wanted the card back only because I never felt so free , to be myself in the longest time. You knew how I was in my horrid past. The past I chose to erase from my memory. Whatever you said to me… Everything. Believe me when I say, God really wanted me to hear all those.


You taught me how to be proud of who we are. Not to be afraid of who I am.  You are right, each time you ask if I was alright? I was not alright. I’m just trying to be brave and suck it all in .


To protect my heart. I did something very selfish. I soon made sure that I would stay away from you. I want happy memories of me, wherever I may be. I don’t think I am strong enough to take it. When one day God says, this is my will for you. For the both of you.


<There’s always the what ifs?>  What if , the reason why we met up again after 5 years is only because we have been looking for our good catholic girl/guy. 



If you wanted to know about my recent ex. Yes, he’s pursuing seminary this year… Real reason why we broke up? If we pursued us, we planned to get married in 3 years time. He wants to pursue the Call of God. And he believes that I would meet someone. I never felt so abandoned. I gave up on relationships, I gave up on genuine love. I’m glad God taught me how it is to love.


Here I am now. I’m healing, I’m still bruised in a certain way. Don’t judge me if I become insecure, sad. It’s just that I need a tight hug to feel alright.


I am glad to see you as you are right now. I am too amazed that you surrendered, felt remorseful. And God just came and clean you off your sins. He just transformed you into the Man , you are created to be 🙂 I will miss you when you are away. I’m already missing you now. Perhaps, that was an excuse I used to brush you away… I’m sorry. 


i feel so loved when I’m with you. Thank you Kenneth.

convo with Sylvester

hmm write a proposal
and also talk to him and discern how to approach him and what way
whatavere comes to your mind you just write down
vision, mission
what do you observes now
what to improve
what you do to make it happens
and why do you think this is the way ?
There are many who are in seaerch for people to see their self-worth/value, affirm their God-given talents, discover their potential within them, their capabilities. They need people who are willing to invest their time in them.

END GOAL : to provide avenues such as events, programs, outreaches for them to discover their potential hidden deep within, develop their giftings, using them all for the Community. In all, to build one another up in our Characters to be rooted in Christ, love for God ; ourselves; others. To be One


The Goal needs to consists Worship (Relationship with God), Words of God (Teaching of Church), Fellowship, Outreach (Evangelize), Discipleship (Relationship with Others).

as long as you have all these elements and move towards balance these elements then your group will grow… so once you have those then it will be stable. but those have to be balance from time to time
Cannot have one more than another….. depends also what community is that
if that community only exist to pray… then obviously evangelization may not be appealing to them
but as youth group and healthy strong community, all these need to have or if that community exist to grow each other’s faith

you mean faith Formations ?
That under words of God
teaching of the church
Faith Formations
it’s like amplify have acg – amplify connect group
so you break into small groups, gender based and journey through the 3 month ….
those are discipleship
I am giving the 5 pillars are genaric you need to have those
but how you conduct it specifically
you can have many methods
by gender
by locations
by partner
etc etc
you just need to discern from time to time
because goal and vision can be big picture
then how you do it can be various
I would say different group will do it differently depends on the leaders and also the members… that’s why need prayers consistently to hear what the Lord wants from time to time
there is no fix formulae… however the pillar needs to have and balance